wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tonight was amazing. I would say the 3-4 grand was raised tonight in order to help send Christy and Andrew to Mexico to help stop human traffiicing. I feel convicted in a lot of ways....looking at the computer for my own sexual desires.....I am sooo sick of it. Only God can truly satisfy me and I want my future husband Lord willing to be able to satisfy me in marriage and not have to depend on some computer. I was exposed to this by my dad as a little child...but now I am a grown adult and I feel to put this generational sin to an end with the Lord's help. The images make your mind sick. Girls are being forced into sexual exploitation and here I am choosing to have an encounter with these sexual sins. Thankfully there is confession and grace and repentance and a new start. It is a new month coming up in a couple of days and I want to start March out differently. Getting up in the morning even when I am tired and having quiet times and sitting with the Lord praying for others and lifting them up rather than my own needs. I have to trust that God knows my needs and he will provide as he sees fit in his due time.
Something that really struck me tonight was just the way God provided for Andrew and Christy! Both of their hearts are willing to go to Mexico and He is simply making it happen as they are saying yes to what he is calling them to do. I think of my own life and how right now things seem financially difficult and I have been doubting God. Tonight was a wake up call and it made me stop and think about my tongue. Instead of complaining about struggling financially, I should be praising God that he has provided for my needs. As the money seems to be running out he provides all the more.
I would say that my faith has been strengthened tonight and I have been challenged to walk more in the spirit and not in the flesh.
It goes with the same for my friendship with Renae. My flesh wants to be mad at her, but my spirit knows that is not the answer. I am going to deal with her at a distance for now and come back to her in due time, but right now I just need some space and hang out with my CORE peeps right now. I am growing to love this community so much and will be sad when the day comes when I will be leaving to head off to Atlanta.
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