Romans 8:28-39
God's Goals
1. List what God has already done for us in Christ. What are God's goals for us now and in the future?
>In all things God works for the good of those who love him
>He called his people to be like him
>God is for us
>He gave up his only Son for us
>He was raised to life for us
>Promised that nothing can separate us from his love
2. Can anything prevent God's will to take effect?
No.
3. Memorize vs. 28-29
"And we KNOW that in ALL things God works for the GOOD of those who love him, who have been CALLED according to his purpose. For those who foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers".
Something that I need to remember is that God is for me and not against me. Sometimes I feel like this is not true, but that it what Satan would want me to think exactly. That the God I proclaim to believe in is not there for me. In reality God is probably sooo close that I could just reach out and touch him. I feel like he is far away right now because I am becoming discouraged by life and circumstances. Lord help me to keep my eyes fixed on you and not on the things of this world. If I look at the world...it is not in great shape. Earthquakes in Japan, tornados in Santa Rosa, babies being killed through abortion. It is a sad world out there. I need to be looking to you as my hope and peace and running towards you DESPITE what my flesh and mind wants to think.
I hope to pass this anatomy class. The first half is over and I have a 65% in the class. Help to me put it behind me with your strength and keep on pressing on. Help me to renew my mind in this class filling my brain with positive thoughts and a can do attitude. My teacher has told me not to drop....so that says something because she is def. one of those teachers who would let me know if she thought I needed to drop.
I need a job or some source of income Lord. I think the babysitting with Rebecca may be off since Anna got mad and cried. Those kids are so spoiled. Molly is cool, but Anna may turn out to be interesting. Show me some more temp jobs Lord. Do I go around putting up babysitter flyers around? Show and guide me Lord because at this point I can't see the next step. What I see is my money running out and not even paying rent and barely being able to pay for bills. I eat out here and there because cooking all the time gets tiring. Show me Lord and help me to trust that you will provide.
I confess my sin to you. I have been cussing and I KNOW its bad and the sexual sin. I want to be free from these so bad. Today is a new day. Give me the strength to make it through this Saturday without cussing or looking at the computer or thinking thoughts that will lead me act them out using the computer.
In your name
Amen
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
What are you doing Lord????????????????
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. why do I feel like my life is about to fall apart Lord? What are you doing? Where are you? What are you trying to show me? I am finding myself questioning it all. I have been in this storm for way to long. I feel like the waters are going to drown me at any second. I am barely keeping my head above water.
I am trying....do you not want me to try anymore? I am giving it all to you cuz I obviously have no idea. I feel like you don't even care about me. Do you see my current situations that I am in? I feel like you are showing up in other people's lives. I feel like that sermon @ Spring Hills Church...when you feel God is letting you down. I try to get close to people and build relationships with them only to find that they are fake and don't reallt care and only commune with me when it is conveinent for them. There are a lot of reasons why I don't attend Calvary anymore. I miss some of the people, but as a church was a whole...not so much.
This anatomy class is so hard and I am finding myself being too hard on myself wondering why I am not getting the A's and B's that I am used to. I barely have a C and it is a scary place to be. I need to pass this class. I feel like my goal of nursing is so close yes it seems so far away.
I have major anxiety right now and it is effecting my performance in this class. I am thinking about moving, but oh to where??????????? The idea of Atlanta is being planted in my head, but now I am not so sure anymore. I feel like I will be left scrambling. I will be leaving everything that I know to go there. Oh Lord what is your will for me? Please show me. I am sooo looking forward to spring break where I will have the time to sit in your presence for longer than 15 minutues....
I try to call out to you, but I don't feel like you hear. Help me Lord NOT to lean on my own understanding in this huge storm that I am in.....
I am trying....do you not want me to try anymore? I am giving it all to you cuz I obviously have no idea. I feel like you don't even care about me. Do you see my current situations that I am in? I feel like you are showing up in other people's lives. I feel like that sermon @ Spring Hills Church...when you feel God is letting you down. I try to get close to people and build relationships with them only to find that they are fake and don't reallt care and only commune with me when it is conveinent for them. There are a lot of reasons why I don't attend Calvary anymore. I miss some of the people, but as a church was a whole...not so much.
This anatomy class is so hard and I am finding myself being too hard on myself wondering why I am not getting the A's and B's that I am used to. I barely have a C and it is a scary place to be. I need to pass this class. I feel like my goal of nursing is so close yes it seems so far away.
I have major anxiety right now and it is effecting my performance in this class. I am thinking about moving, but oh to where??????????? The idea of Atlanta is being planted in my head, but now I am not so sure anymore. I feel like I will be left scrambling. I will be leaving everything that I know to go there. Oh Lord what is your will for me? Please show me. I am sooo looking forward to spring break where I will have the time to sit in your presence for longer than 15 minutues....
I try to call out to you, but I don't feel like you hear. Help me Lord NOT to lean on my own understanding in this huge storm that I am in.....
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Life
It has been some time since I have written in here. Anatomy keeps getting harder. Two tests down and one more to go tomorrow. Three tests in one is is just plain brutal. It is no joke when they say that anatomy is one of the hardest class at the Santa Rosa Junior. When this is all over with it will be interesting to look back at it all and say "wow, I just completed that". I am thankful for Danielle King who has been an excellent professor so far. She really wants her students' to succed and do well in this course. She is working her butt off in teaching the material and we are working our butts off in making sure that we understand it all. I know that God has put nursing before me for sure. I actually like what I am learning and find it very interesting.
It has been very relaxing not going to The Rock. Now that I am not involved and have stepped down from all ministries I was involved in, I feel the freedom to enjoy other churches. I am excited for the move to Atlanta. I know that it will be different than California, but I am ready for the change. Sometimes in order to learn just who we truly are we have to push ourselves out of our comfort zones. I am learning that in anatomy for sure. I often find myself blurting out I don't know when deep down inside I really do know. I am working on calming my nerves and managing my test anxiety.
As far as living in this house is concerned....I can't wait to get out of here. I feel like a baby and get nagged at about the littlest details. Yes, we are living in your house Fran, but don't try to put your stuff on us. It is just the way she tries to address issues is so stupid and I don't feel like she really takes our feelings into consideration. I am thankful that is letting me slide on rent because financially thnigs are hard, but my heart is just not in this house. So I feel like I am about to turn into Kristi and just simply being gone most of the day. Now that anatomy is about to go into "4th gear" I will pretty much be eating and breathing anatomy more than what I already am! I know that God will see my through it all though.
It has been very relaxing not going to The Rock. Now that I am not involved and have stepped down from all ministries I was involved in, I feel the freedom to enjoy other churches. I am excited for the move to Atlanta. I know that it will be different than California, but I am ready for the change. Sometimes in order to learn just who we truly are we have to push ourselves out of our comfort zones. I am learning that in anatomy for sure. I often find myself blurting out I don't know when deep down inside I really do know. I am working on calming my nerves and managing my test anxiety.
As far as living in this house is concerned....I can't wait to get out of here. I feel like a baby and get nagged at about the littlest details. Yes, we are living in your house Fran, but don't try to put your stuff on us. It is just the way she tries to address issues is so stupid and I don't feel like she really takes our feelings into consideration. I am thankful that is letting me slide on rent because financially thnigs are hard, but my heart is just not in this house. So I feel like I am about to turn into Kristi and just simply being gone most of the day. Now that anatomy is about to go into "4th gear" I will pretty much be eating and breathing anatomy more than what I already am! I know that God will see my through it all though.
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